Lone

Posted by edward / at 9:41 AM / / 0 comments

I've been solo-ing a lot lately, in doing almost anything actually. from dining to shopping and sometimes even watching movie at the cinemas alone.

Actually before this i do enjoy the occasional "alone" time, especially going out and shopping, because when i'm shopping alone, i'll only visit the shops that i really want to go, without any hassle. Because you klnow, when you go out with a bunch of friends, some might say "hey i wanna check out new stuff at topman" or "hey let's go the padini outlet first" and so on....it's not that i loathe going out in a group, trust me going out in a group is really fun. Just that when i shop alone, i make it brief and straight to the point. When i'm going to shop alone, i already know what i'm going to buy, such as some older release shoes with huge discounts or fresh release stuff that i'm anticipating sometime ago. I go, i grab, i pay, i leave, and that's it.

But lately i notice that my "alone" time is getting more and more. Is it because i'm too get used to solitary lifestyle and i'm starting to ignore what's happening around me? I went back to hometown few days ago, and i'm still at aloq stuck now. I used to hang out with my roommates even when i'm at hometown (due to my particle-sized social life), and now i'm all alone when i went out just now. I always feel that the old saying of "no man is an island" doesn't really apply to me because i do enjoy being alone, but now I finally feel that being alone is really one of the worst feeling you'll feel. Even when i'm at kl with my friends and mates I still feel this emptiness and hollow in me. The feeling is getting so intense that I'm beginning to feel that i might have depression.

Damn i seriously need to do something on improving my social life, really don't want things to get anymore worse. Maybe I should start with altering my mentality on my way of socializing. My close friends around me know that i'm always the "less talkative" one in the group, or in other words "listener". Yeah I do listen a lot on what my friends are talking, but maybe it's time for change. Perhaps i should switch to the talker instead of being silent and listen. Or maybe i'm just being too cool and others will mistakenly think i'm just a schmuck?

Is it a sign of me facing depression by typing all this crap?Fuck.....

Wish I Could...

Posted by edward / at 7:57 PM / / 0 comments

Drop everything i need or might need to do today(test at tomorrow included) and just roll away on my board...

Oh fog...

Posted by edward / at 10:47 PM / / 1 comments

We all have our fair share of crazy ideas,especially on what to do on a boring night.some say the usual clubbing,some hit the streets and check out the sights and sounds of sleepless nights at the city,some might just being the same old couch potato and stare at the idiot box on the lord of the rings reruns or some hk soap marathon...

But the idea of a sudden trip to genting highlands at midnight?that idea never gets old...

It was jin xuan's birthday, after the k-singing session with her friends from her college,we're off to setapak to grab shu jou along on this little trip to end the night at the sin city of our country.

On our way up to the mountains,we encountered fog thick as the yellow pages...By the way this is actually my very first time driving on my own up there,cos usually it's my friends that does the driving. And seriously,the thickness of the fog really made the driving much-more difficult as the winding mountains road already giving me a good test on my driving skills.

This is what it looks like while we're just halfway through...It reminds me of scenes of some horror movies,haha.

I did learn something from this little trip,that is your vision in front is better if you turn off the headlight while driving in a thick fog as the fog will reflect the light from the headlight. We end up stoning up there until 7am cos the fog is too thick and too risky for us to go down.But still this little trip beats the usual boring night.Thanks to jin xuan again for making it happen by suggesting this idea over supper,haha.Hoping for more sudden trips like this before she's off to taiwan.

Kampar: Day 2 (morning)

Posted by edward / at 10:13 AM / / 0 comments

We're supposed to wake up by 8am today but we're still asleep at 9am.But we're still able to go visit utar kampar campus today. Yee yuin is our tour guide of the day. The very first thought that came into my mind when we enter the campus is "this place is freakin huge...".Seriously,the campus is indeed super sized compared to my puny campus of FES at setapak. They even had a freakin lake inside the school compound for god sake,before this i thought they lake is situated at

outside of the campus.

Not to forget there are also locals tagging along with us in this dull trip to the campus on the weekends, Nicole and Yan Ern. All of us took picture in front of the library main door.

The lake is seriously huge.They should consider letting people riding jet ski or some boating activity on that lake,what a waste...

When we're walking from block to block i also notice that each block has it's own canteen. But later i understand why they had to have a canteen on each block, because it is really far to travel from 1 block to another just to grab a bite.

This is the biggest canteen at block C. There are only a few chinese orchestra people practicing there due to weekend. This canteen is jam packed with people during weekdays,mostly students doing their foundation who are studying at block B.

This big piece of building is their freakin library. Too bad i can't get in because i don't have my student lanyard with me.

Not only there is a lake inside the campus,even a small stream.Wonder where the water came from....organic sewage system?

There is a lot of gardens in the campus too. Here i'm taking picture with our lovely guide,yee yuin. Don't worry you'll see a lot of her in the pictures....XD

Due to my laziness i only update some of the pictures. You can view em via Yeeyuin's pictures on her facebook. It is a bitch uploading those pictures, and i'm not an active blogger,which makes it worse...

I'm getting tired on updating.I'll update the afternoon part of day 2 on the next post. Uploading pictures from my phone is also quite a bitch,argh...

Till next time.

Kampar trip:day 1

Posted by edward / at 8:27 PM / / 0 comments

I was pretty looking forward to the trip to kampar. First it was because i never went to there before, and i keep hearing from others that the campus there is like forbidden-city sized plus the great view. Also, i wanna experience the student's life at there, as i only study at pj and kl for the past 3 years. Truth is i'm getting sick of the life at kl,it is too.....dead and monotonous to me. Well yeah,i have to agree at kl there is always something fun to do like shopping(man,i love to shop), cant forget those shops i always go to get those fresh released kicks,or on the hunt for some over-priced kicks that is going on sale during sales period and those nice restaurants, but i still feel that something is missing here at kl.maybe i'm just looking for something that doesn't exist, or something that's really cant be found at kl.My other purpose of going there is just....hanging out with my friends who are still studying there.every semester break when i go back to hometown i always told them "yeah,i'll find you when sem break,then we can hang out" and stuff like that,but in the end i'm always stuck with the few very person that i spend most of my time with at kl(even share the same room with them).damn my social circle is shrinking....

On that day, the weather is just perfect to start my journey from my home at setapak.not too much sun,not too cloudy,just the type of weather i enjoyed most.i hate rainy days,because i really like wearing suede leather shoes, they look nice and comfortable at the same time and nice to skate in, and h2o is the prime enemy of suede leather.

As i reach kl sentral, i need to wait for jin xuan for an hour plus cos she's kinda occupied with her further studies to taiwan thingy, so i just hang around at mcd.when she's finally here and we meet up,the train ticket for afternoon already sold out,left the night train at 10.30pm.man,what a great start to our trip....so we end up killing our time by taking train to klcc and watched marmaduke.not a bad movie,if you're a dog lover.

Oh,by the way this is the place where we take our train at kl sentral. I only knew on that day that we can take train of ktm here at kl sentral, not the komuter type but the type that travel across our nation...


When we reach kampar it is already nearly 2am.wee chin came to pick us up and bring us on a tour around kampar, both old town and new town, midnight style.not much activity at the old town,nearly no activity at all,but things are still going active at new town,maybe cos it's filled with students from both ktar and utar live and hanging out there. they got almost everything a student need there,mamak store,cc,7-11,pool center....looks like their night life here is not much different compared to mine at kl.
We hit the sack as soon as we reach there cos we need to go visit the utar campus there tomorrow morning.stay tune for the update on day 2.

Homecoming

Posted by edward / at 9:43 AM / / 0 comments

Just came back from visiting kampar.
Had a great time there for the past few days,will definitely update about the trip i had there when i got my hands on the pictures we took there from jin xuan.
Bunch of thanks to my friends there,yee yuin, wee chin, wei ting, wei khiang,ee khang and many more,for providing me a place to crash and tons of fun there.
Definitely one of the places i will visit again some time in the future.
Throughout the trip, i done a lot of thinking, a lot of soul searching and mind clearing. The serenity and chiilax life there helps a lot on de-stress and re-charge. Really hope my lives at kl could be as relaxing as i had at kampar.
Will sort through my mess and hopefully end it starting tomorrow.
Hitting the sack earlier tonight as i'm still kinda tired from the trip.Again,thanks to the peeps back at kampar for everything.
Also,i'm beginnning to love the idea of having short trips like this in the mid of semester,will invite more kaki next time.

Radiohead-Creep

Posted by edward / at 10:30 PM / / 0 comments

A song that keeps replaying in my playlist lately.a really sad and melancholic song.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out, she run, run, run, run, run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here